BRING ME THE WOMEN!

I got an email the other day asking whether or not I ought to just admit I'm gay. The writer noted that the majority of my entries seem to focus on male/male relations rather than the more traditional male/female roles.

And yes, I get that. To the long term reader I have to admit it looks like I'm far more than the "20%" I suggest here and elsewhere. I am bisexual, but have a much greater appreciation of male/female sexuality than perhaps the majority of my posts suggest.

When I started this blog it was to go into and examine my sexuality. As a late-50s male I'm confronting a variety of issues related to sex, sexuality and my own sexual satisfaction. I only have two close friends I can discuss this with, and my wife is enduring an ongoing medical condition which prevents any sexual activity.

(If you're new here, I was highly active - even promiscuous - in high school and college. I experimented a lot, and retain many of those sexual attitudes, if not activities, later in life.)


But I *do* love, appreciate, and want to have fun with the female form. Given my druthers I could happily be balls-deep in a woman every day for the rest of my life, as long as Lil Rambler holds out. (That's a different problem, for another time.)

But psychologically I have difficulty imagining a scenario in which I would have sex with a woman other than my wife. I just couldn't do it.

Which leaves me with men.

For years I harbored the fantasy that maybe my best friend and I could have a casual male/male "helping hand" relationship, but if you read my last blog entry I've pretty well moved beyond that.

I have another friend, himself married and bisexual, who has offered me "blowjobs on demand." It's a relationship which dates back to those college years. But I don't think it's very satisfactory for either of us.

And so, dry spell.

And focus on male/male relationships versus male/female. Again, it's parsing nits, but it seems less of a betrayal to my wife this way.

But I love women. I love a well-formed cleavage - which can be monstrously distracting for me under the right circumstances. I really try to be respectful but, as I noted in a previous entry, I really want to look. I love the appearance of a woman's vagina. I could easily spend lots of time going down on her (oral is my favorite kind of sex). I love cuddling, and I love the casual nudity whether it's CFNM or mutual nudity. I just love the sensations that come from intimacy with the female form.

And even though we're not intimate sexually, I *am* naked in front of my wife quite a bit. In the shower, in bed, swimming or tanning in the back yard. There are times I go pants-free around the house. She' a great deal more shy.

I don't talk about it as much as I should, I guess. But I assure the reader that my guess of 80/20 bisexuality is definitely tilted towards the ladies.

Not that there's anything wrong with that.