GROUP EFFORTS

I've mentioned before that I was quite adventurous sexually during my college years. Under the philosophy of "try anything once" I was open to a variety of adventures, some of which are best left alone to rot under the headline of "bad ideas", but some serve to inform my current review of my sexuality. I don't expect anything terribly useful to come of my introspections given that I am effectively celibate for the forseeable future (see the previous entries on my wife's medical condition).




So, in some ways, I'm left to live in the past.

I've mentioned previously that I am essentially bisexual. Roughly 80% female oriented, with 20% or so male oriented. It made for some interesting encounters over the years, and part of who I am is because I find both men and women attractive, though for almost entirely different reasons. Aesthetically I am drawn to both. As a photographer I would love to start a new series of shots detailing older relationships, male/male, male/female and female/female, but that's a topic for another time.

In college I attended one full-on orgy. Roughly ten people, of a variety of orientations.

For a year or so a group of us played strip poker, with the first person losing all of their clothes paying the price of sexually satisfying the person who was the last to lose theirs. The rest of us watched. All combinations were possible, so we all had to be relatively open-minded to play.

Then there were the threesomes. I love threesomes if all three are willing and enthusiastic participants. Nobody can feel compelled or pushed, that ruins the fun.

My preference, entirely in a sexist way, is for MMF. Male, Male, Female. The normal assumption, of course, is that guys prefer FFM but I found that my own response was that *I* felt I had to please both women equally, and that the pressure to do so was at-time offputting. It was fun, no doubt, but the fantasy of the situation was, in my case, not quite the reality.

But in an MMF I felt freer to focus on the woman, with occasional dalliances with my bisexuality. I love people who are open and free sexually, physically, and if you have like-minded partners it is a truly wonderful way to enjoy your body. One on one it's an intimate bond and a way for two people to express their affection. In a threeway (or more) it's all about the fun.

I was watching a video the other day which prompted this entry. In it a pair of guys are working together to please a woman. The guys are fully comfortable with each other, which I find erotic. At one point one of the guys slips out of the woman as they fuck, and the other guy casually reaches over and grabs his cock, reinserting him into the woman. Just a casual gesture, but it spoke to a more intimate friendship off screen. They were comfortable with each other's bodies, which is important when being this intimate as friends.

In a second video that same day - it became my topic of the day for viewing - at one point one of the guys is sitting to the side as the other is fucking the woman. She's too occupied with her own enjoyment to focus on the second guy. This is one of the problems inherent in a threesome, by the way. Someone gets left out. So the first guy reaches over and grabs the other guy's cock, and begins jacking him. To keep him included. A minute or so later the woman resumes her attention, but the "helping hand", as it's called, was particularly good to see.

As I've grown older I have become more fascinated by intimate friendships among men. I'm of a generation where this was just beginning to crack open, and we all still had our hangups about such friendships. Fortunately this is changing  with each succeeding generation. Guys now are far more comfortable being physically affectionate with each other (nonsexual, just touching and otherwise expressing affection).

It's a natural extension of that from affectionate to being comfortable arund each other in sexual situations, including multiple-partner adventures.

It's something which I won't be able to be a party to - despite a recent invitation from a guy friend for a threeway with his wife. I know it's a double standard, but I cannot entertain cheating on my wife that way. As much as I love women, it's hands off.

But I still live with my memories, and that can get me through the night.

That, and a little three-way bisexual porn, that is.