Well, I'm back

That was fun. Very sincere apologies for the confusion. Still don't know how what happened, happened, but an innocent woman's email address suddenly appeared on the old blog site and could not be removed. To avoid accidently embarassing her I have sadly had to delete all the content and blog site - I think I caught the mistake before anyone had the chance to see it and contact her. Have no idea who she is, but the email address stubbornly refused to be deleted from my previous site's main page.

Yeah. That's what you want. Your name spread all across some guy's rant about his sexuality. Mortifying.

So, we adapt and take steps to ensure she's never aware she was momentarily associated with my cock.

The good news is that I get to recreate and rewrite those original entries, or anything else that catches my attention.

For those of you just now seeing this blog: I am a 56 year old male who is dealing with a lot in my life. I am happily married and live in a good house in a great neighborhood. I am probably 80% straight and 20% gay (meaning "bisexual"), and have an appreciation and affection for both sexes in different ways.

I'm a photographer, which pretty much means I'm a voyeur. And I do love to see naked people, and have openly watched couples and groups have sex on a number of occasions in addition to simple nude photoshoots of friends, strangers and people who are exhibitionists at heart. It's a beautiful thing to see folks who are completely relaxed and having a fun time fucking, sucking and otherwise taking an interest in pleasuring other people/deriving pleasure themselves.

The blog is here for an open and frank discussion about sex and my sexuality. There are things I want to say that I just don't have a forum for in my "real life".

It will (hopefully) be of interest for readers and will maybe deal with a topic you find exciting. Getting you off isn't the intent, but if something's to your interest have at it. Nothing like a putting a little pleasure in the world, just make sure you clean up afterward and shoot me a note in appreciation.

I'll include links to things I find and want to share. (Like the best professional blowjob ever committed to video.) (I'm not into professional "plastic automaton" porn, preferring to watch "real people" fuck and suck and etc...but this video gets me going. I'll discuss why in a future column.)

My wife isn't aware of my bisexuality. We discussed it briefly when were originally dating but that was decades ago. She's currently enduring a medical problem which prohibits intercourse, and she's never been a fan of oral sex. Another topic I'll be discussing is my love of oral and, separately, the frustration of getting testosterone treatments which coincide with a spouse's sexual retreat. (It's physically painful for her to have intercourse, so fucking is out of the question. She wants to, but can't.) Lil Rambler would prefer something better than my left hand, but at the moment that's his usual partner. My left has shown itself to be a better lover than my right.

My cock and groin have received a fair amount of medical attention over the years, and that's not necessarily a good thing. I've had medical problems which invariably seem focussed on what we refer to as my "lower left quadrant". Multiple hernia operations, several other procedures and what has now been identified as a varicocele - varicose vein - in my left nut. The dark strip of hair diagonally slashing across my pubes in the picture to the right is right over a scar we were watching for infection.

Woohoo! Welcome to middle age.

(The picture is a couple of decades old, btw. My stomach isn't flat any more...) (This was taken in a mirror, so the scar looks like it's on the right but is reversed.)

All of the medical attention, plus other things, has led me to become pretty blase about nudity. I've been flat on a gurney or examination tables, naked from the waist down (or completely nude wearing only a gown, which is rolled up to expose my dick), on many occasions for examinations, procedures, ultra-sound, xrays, tests, probes, and other things which have left me pretty much open about exposing my genitals when asked.

 I've had friends who were nudist and hanging out with them was no big deal. I've been on porn sets and to nude beaches. Enjoyed the latter more than the former. Been skinny dipping with friends, both in the jacuzzi and in the pool. My best buddy and I are frequently nude together, another topic I'll get into -- he and I have closely bonded and the nudity is an indication of that closeness. It's his cock, not mine, in the header picture at the top of the blog.

I am a former athlete who has fallen into a former-athlete's fatness. At my highest I was a hundred pounds over my most trim days in college, but have recently gotten serious about getting back into shape and lost 35 pounds. Obviously a lot left to go, and this blog provides some additional motivation.

In college I was very active sexually, and not all of it I'm proud of. Tried a lot of things under the guise of...well, trying a lot of things. Never received anal sex. Never got into scat or too messy things. I enjoy being naked with friends. Love massages. I have a strong medical fetish which, oddly enough, vanishes when I'm around real doctors.

Had a few threesomes - both MMF as well as FFM. One roommate I had started to date a previous girlfriend of mine and as a result we had a few months of interesting combinations in our flat. That same girlfriend used me as a nude model on a number of occasions, also with interesting result. I'll talk about these things in the future.

I'll be discussing my experiences over the years, as well as my attitudes and thoughts. Among the topics are tings I've already addressed in the now lost blog, so get to go over them again.

Welcome. Or welcome back. Siddown, relax, get comfortable and take something off.